April Fool's Day

Well, today is April 1st. I am NOT an April Fool. By no means.

I am, however, a depressed bipolar human behind the lovely and vivacious and GROOVY avatar.

The human is working so hard to get the above in control. Mind you, she adores the up swing days on the bipolar spectrum - as her manic highs are around everyone's normal happy - just a little above that maybe - when she is on her manic side - she tends to talk a lot more - make jokes a lot more and is very giddy and she feels very artistic and has blasts of artistic creativity so she starts projects - is able to leave the confines of her room and get things done.

When she is on the low end of the bipolar she is really low. I mean LOW. If you have not dealt with depression, especially bipolar depression, you may not understand. Crying is a standard every few minutes for no reason and the not wanting to leave the safe area of the bedroom or what ever room is the safe zone.

The human here in question has bipolar mixed which is hard because both sides of the spectrum has parts of the other end mixed in. Like the racing thoughts of the high end is still present in the low end, etc.

So the human behind the hip and groovy Dakk is going through the down side right now - but it will pass. She will be in SL, as she has to pay tier on her lot and has other stuff to do - and hopefully seeing all her friends will help her hourglass turn around again to the up side.

But if you don't see her - just know she is still there - Her Human just needs to pick up her basket. :-)

Inventory Clearance Sale?

Well I am not sure about the sale part - but the inventory clearance has to take place. And I am dreading it!

I have over 30K things in my inventory to go through. I almost had everything all sorted out and in nice and neat folders and folders inside folders and I made boxes and put things in boxes to save inventory space.

But then something happened and it was like in one of those old comedy shows in black and white - the ones that show people going on vacation and they have so much in their suitcase they have to sit on it to get it closed... but they fall off and the suitcase opens and everything comes flying out.... well that is what happened to my inventory.

I can't find anything. I don't know what is the pretty dress or the one that has a pretty name but is super ugly. Do I really need 20 copies of the TV remote control? I have 7 copies of the medieval canopy bed that has the sleep script on it... On it- they made two clear prims and put a scrip to make you lay on your back. your head doesn't even touch the pillows. and I have 7 beds like that. all because i pull one out and one stays in inventory. I pick the bed back up because we are doing something to the building then I pull the bed out but this time I now have one bed in the room and two in my inventory... Same thing with fireflies.

I need to clear all that stuff out of my inventory - I need to then go through my poses folder and organize that - I have poses all over my inventory - scattered hither, tither and yon. I need them in ONE place. I need to go through my clothes. OMG my clothes. I have to go through what I have and get rid of over half of what I have. maybe save a piece or two like gloves, stockings or hats. Go through my shoes and jewelry.

I wonder - Can you have a yard sale in Second Life? I know I can't hold one at my house - it is listed in my covenant - I wonder if it would be worth it to rent a booth somewhere - are there flea markets in Second Life?

Now that I am thinking on this - I have so much in my inventory --(even a kitchen sink!) Someone may want to buy some of it (the stuff that can be transferred that is). Would you pay 5L for an outfit that may have never been worn - just taken out of the box?

I am not looking forward to the task at hand. I would rather be out shopping, dancing or hanging out with my friends. I guess I need to actually set aside time on my calendar to work on this - make myself busy and just work on it for a couple of days. Other wise this inventory is going to be too heavy to carry around soon.

Happy Monday Everyone!

~Dakk

PS. Tomorrow is my RezDay!

Crazy is as Crazy does.

And I have been told I am crazy. Have I done crazy things? Answer would be Yes.

Like flying as high as I could with a flight feather with my parachute on then putting the feather away and falling. it was fun. but more fun was falling WITH OUT the parachute!

I love just finding strange and unusual things in Second Life. I did not know you could cliff dive or para sail. those really aren't crazy. Now doing the chocobo gesture and running around IS crazy. and getting dressed up as a huge crab and doing the chocobo gesture is even crazier!

hmmm I know I did a lot of crazy things in SL - I did sit on dinosaur eggs waiting for them to hatch. - they didn't. oh I ran on a giant hamster wheel once. that was odd

I guess I haven't done as many crazy things as I thought I did. I better get busy. there are a lot of crazy things to do out there and I want to do them. LOL

Dakk

What to write when you don't know what to write

Honestly I have no idea what to write about! OK I will just start to ramble and see where it takes us... these are the fun posts because my brain is very good at wandering!

I have discovered Plurking. For those of you who have never heard of Plurking it is like Tweeting but better. I have a Twitter account too - but since Plurk - I rarely go there anymore - plus I have my Plurk update my Twitter account! Honestly I am so happy I joined Plurk. I have met so many wonderful Plurkers - and we have wonderful conversations. Almost all my Plurkie Plurk Friends are from Second Life so there is a lot of talk about our Second Lives and some about our Real or First Lives. Some of my friends in Plurk have become friends of mine in the Second Life Universe, I have brought some of my Second Life friends over to Plurk (I wonder how many times I can say Plurk in this one paragraph.....) and some Plurk Friends were already on my friends list and my friends list at Flickr. So, if you are reading this and you are wondering just what a Plurk looks like here is the link.

So did you count how many times I said it? I haven't the vision I used to have so I didn't count. LOL

Well I don't remember if I wrote about the wonderful property I purchased that is just beautiful. I love it. I bought a house.. a house. I have bought them before. In fact I had a beach house. I loved it too but when I moved and became a wanderer for the few months I took off - before I bought this land - it is in my inventory. and with this land it doesn't go with my new property so in the inventory it stays. So I went house hunting. I wanted just a small house - not a 1 room job though. I looked and looked. My pixelated feet and RL hands were very sore from wandering all the house selling companies. I needed a house to match the land, a cottage, I had seen a few that I liked but for some reason I went for the biggest one out of the ones I liked. Darn it... the house is huge. It takes up almost the whole lot! what do I need two bedrooms for? I mean I have beds but I never use them! right now the only things in the house is my TV-DVD player and radio and a sofa. that is all in one room on the first floor - the other side of the house and the whole upstairs is empty. EMPTY. I am debating if I want to go back and get that cute little white cottage with the red doors and windows. I don't know. I am just not sure. My brain hurts from trying to make this decision. Bleh.

Well, speaking of brain hurts - I am really meaning it. I have one of those Migraines I get a few times a week. So until next time -

Be good........

.............But not too good!

Hasta Pasta!
Dakk

I'm Back

Hey everyone!
Well I am back, for honest & for true! I have been in Second Life almost every day and it felt great! I am making new friends and I am still modeling. I am with two agencies, one is is active and I love everyone there. Yes, it is Look Elite. :-)

My friend and photographer, Divine, is currently taking some time for RL. Oh, Don't worry, I happen to know another photography studio that is THE BEST,Black Label Productions, and I am not just saying that because it owned by two of my friends, Laura18 Streeter & Bourbon Zenakova, You can find their studio on Bourbon Street in the French Quarter.
Well for now I have to sign off - I have a lot to do both on Plurk and in the SL Universe and the human has a few things to do IRL.

Hasta Pasta!
Dakk

Real life strikes again

Many of you know that IRL my dad had both heart bypass then esophageal cancer. He beat them both - but the toll on his body was too much. He had a blood clot in his lung, infection in his heart, and we thought he was getting better and would be released from the hospital. No such luck.

On June 29, 2009, my daddy, my hero - died. I tried to get to see him but he died 4 min before I reached the hospital. I have not been around in SL or anywhere. They held a memorial service for him in FL but the weather was bad and my friend who is a pilot could not leave the airport so I missed that as well.

Needless to say - I have been feeling like a horrible daughter.

So that is it - tomorrow will be one month. I have not left the first stage of Grief... Denial. I keep expecting to have him call me. I know mom turned off his cell phone with their carrier but I cannot delete his number. I just can't. Everyone says it will get better. I know he is in a better place and no longer in pain. I know that. I just wish I had the opportunity to tell him he was still my hero and how much I loved him.

Dakk

SHOPPING

There is nothing better for this girl to do when not working the runway or in front of the camera and that is shopping. Just a few minutes ago one of my BFFs Divine Nightly took me to the new Minnu store and I bought some new skins. I love them. And I don't have to adjust my face for them. They are like they were made for me. I am not telling you what set I bought. I don't want everyone running around like me, now do I?

Tomorrow we are going to hit the fashion fair, if it is still going on. If is not, then there a few places I have been dying to go to but never have seemed to have time to go to. Well I am going to make time. What good is living in a virtual world if you cannot enjoy it. Museums, gardens, cities, continents, Stores, So much to see and do.

And clothing stores and shoe stores, hair stores, and skin stores, you name it I want to see it....

I may not have money but a girl can look and wish can't she?

To be on the runway again....

...is a rush like no other!

I was blessed to be able to walk for Look Elite Models in such an important show! The debut of MEB's spring collection!

I had one mishap on my last run due to lag. On my way back up to make my turn to go down the middle walkway, I got stuck inside one of the poles. LOL OOPS! Laura came to my rescue and saved my life with a tp to the back of the stage. I love lag --- I am one with the lag--- :-)

You can read about the show at the Look Elite Models Blog and learn more about this fantastic agency. I have been with them since the beginning, through rough times and let me tell you, I am very proud to be a Look Elite Model.


I love you guys... now I am all teary eyes cause I love you. LOL Laura or Bourbon you need to smack me upside my head! LMAO!

Dakk

New blog added to this one

I just added a blog for my human so I can try to separate my two halves a little better. There will still be cross overs as I am basically myself in SL anyway, but my personal posts will be in the other blog.

Here is the link to it while I try to see if there is a way to put a visual link on the front page here. I am not sure I will be able to figure it out as I am still learning about blogger. Give me time. :-)

Well, That is all for now. I may come in to SL for a bit tonight. Depends on how the human feels.

Hugs and Shimmies!
Dakk

I have been MIA again

RL has taken over again. First last weekend it was my RL sister came to town with a whole gaggle of guests. My anxiety was through the roof and it has not come down yet since it is the Holiday Season.

Things will get better -- they have to, Right?

I think I will be back in a day or two - still trying to get things cleaned up and straitened after their departure and get the tree decorated.

OMG I Have not even started to purchase Christmas and Hanukkah Gifts yet. Anxiety up again time to go to bed.....